the-midnight-fairy

A FAILED "ARTIST".

Hello, I'm a failed artist that had the gift of manual skills but was never able to developed. I simply try and try to learn but never improved in nothing.

I didnt find the right resources, money and free tutorials that really can help. I follow thousands of tutorials but I do not understand. I do not learn. Yes theres many free tutorials, but I think theres need real good courses to learn something. For me, without professionals Schools is not possible to developed a real technique, not because is totally impossible but because to do things all by oneselves would requires so much time that I could not do it. I dont want to spend each second of life and efforts for this especially when , with a Professional Course /School I could invest less time and reach the Main Point without to do abnorme efforts. Of course one need to study but also have to use the Time in the best nanner. If to learn, one have to do things all by yourself, when, with a School you can reach the best results in less time and rationable amount of time, thats for me. But since I dont have money I can t join School class about Photograph post production...

So be it.

Jesus Ufam Tobie From the Diary "He and I" , by Gabrielle Bossis: "(once) Jesus told me: "Take care of My Love. There is no Orphan who is more helpless than I ..." Dal Diario "Lui e io" di Gabrielle Bossis "(una volta) Gesù mi disse: "Occupati del mio Amore... non c'è Orfano così abbandonato come Me..."

"HE AND I" 1936 August 22, 1936. On a ship. During the classical concert I offered him, like sheaves, the sounds with his sweetness. He told me softly, as he had done again: "My daughter, My little girl."

"5. September 24. In Canada The Chapel is at the door of my room, and every time I pass, I smile at him.He told me: "Smile at everyone. I will put a Grace in each of your smiles."

October 4. In Montreal He: "When you lack recollection, he who suffers deprivation is Me."(And he said this with utmost delicacy in the Voice). October 25. Christ the King. This morning the priest consecrated me to God during Mass. He put my offering in the pallia, under the host. Jesus told me: "Take care of My Love. There is no orphan who is more helpless than I ..." October, near Quebec. The children had finished singing, and I would say: "I no longer speak to you in music." He replied: "My music is your love." November 3, 1936. At Mass, on the ship that brought me from America. "Believe in infinite purification by My Blood."

November 3, 1936. Return aboard "L'Ile de France". With the thought I put my head on His Shoulder. He said: "Can you give it to me forever?" On another occasion he told me: "I'm looking for hungry." Me: "Lord, give me the thirst for martyrdom." He: "You don't want to have anything but what I want to offer you." November 4, upon return. Last Mass, on the bridge of the ship. Distracted after communion, I heardher gently say: "I'm waiting."

December, in France. Down the street. Me: "I'm walking by your side." He, sweetly, "But you don't tell me much."

December 14. "Strive to bring everyone My Smile, the kind Voice."

December 15, in France. Me: "Lord, I adore you." He: "But, love me above all."

December 16. "Get out of your usual measurements. Love me more."

December 17. "Let's start Heaven from now on. Love me tirelessly, as I love you."

One afternoon. "Wherever there is beauty and charm, there I am."

December 19. "There are times when you doubt that it is I Who speaks to you, as simple and as your own seem My Words. But, is it that you and I are not one and the same?"

December 21. I asked him to give me, and me, all those Graces that are rejected by so many souls. He told me: "My Thanks are without measure, but I am rich enough to give you others. Am I not, the Infinite?

"With me be simple, like family."

December 24. "Be tough for yourself and soft for others."

"When you love Me, you purify yourself."

"Be a Grace of Mine to all."

“I convert your prayers into My Prayers. But if you don't want to pray ... Can I perhaps make a plant bloom if you don't plant it? "

January 1, 1937. "Your currency for this year: 'With purity and simplicity'. May it be enough to offer me the present moment every time, so that your whole year will be Mine."33. January 1, 1937. "Your currency for this year will be: With purity and simplicity."

January 1, 1937. "May it be enough to offer me every moment that passes; so your whole year will be mine."

January 5. "Practice acts of Hope. Get out of yourself and enter Me."

"Don't judge. Do you know, perhaps, his soul?"

"Always put me in front of you. Me first, you later."

"Give them pleasure; so you will give it to Me."

January 26. "A wife who didn't look often in her husband's eyes, would she really be a wife?"

January 29, 1937. "Begin your path of the Cross upon leaving your home, in conjunction with the journey that I should have traveled from the Garden of My Agony."

February 7. "Can you doubt My Love? Let others become famous with a lot of noise on stage; youremain hidden."

February 12. "Of course! I know all your miseries perfectly, you are for me a little daughter."

"If you knew how sensitive I am to small things !.

February 14, aboard a car. "Have you seen My Benevolence reflected in that young woman's face?Always be like that yourself. If My faithful were good to each other, this would change the face of the Earth."

February 14, 1937. In a chapel: `Lord, do you want us both to remain here?" He: "Wherever you are we can be both. Do what you must do and do not take care of what is said.

"Your desire to love is already love."

"Wrap me in your love."

"Your soul has a door that opens to the contemplation of God. But it is essential that you open it." ------------------------------------------------

From the revelations of the Lord Jesus to St. Faustina Kowalska's diary of Mercy:

"Once, as I was talking with my spiritual director, I had an interior vision - quicker than lightning - of his soul in great suffering, in such agony that God touches very few souls with such fire. The suffering arises from this work. There will come a time when this work, which God is demanding so very much, will be as though utterly undone. And then God will act with great power, which will give evidence of its authenticity. It will be a new splendor for the Church, although it has been dormant in it from long ago. That God is infinitely merciful, no one can deny. He desires everyone to know this before He comes again as Judge. He wants souls to come to know Him first as King of mercy. When this triumph comes, we shall already have entered the new life in which there is no suffering. But before this, your soul [of the spiritual director] will be surfeited with bitterness at the sight of the destruction of your efforts. However, this will only appear to be so, because what God has once decided upon, He does not change. But although this destruction will be such only in outward appearance, the suffering will be real. When will this happen? I do not know. How long will it last? I do not know. But God has promised a great grace especially to you and to all those . . . who will proclaim My great mercy. I shall protect them Myself at the hour of death, as My own glory. And even if the sins of souls were as dark as night, when the sinner turns to My mercy, he gives Me the greatest praise and is the glory of My Passion. When a soul extols My goodness, Satan trembles before it and flees to the very bottom of hell. During one of the adorations, Jesus promised me that: With souls that have recourse to My mercy and with those that glorify and proclaim My great mercy to others, I will deal according to My infinite mercy at the hour of their death. My Heart is sorrowful, Jesus said, because even chosen souls do not understand the greatness of My mercy. Their relationship [with Me] is, in certain ways, imbued with mistrust. Oh, how much that wounds My Heart! Remember My Passion, and if you do not believe My words, at least believe My wounds.

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